Phades Journey

ok so anotherfew months have passed since i last wrote about uni, well i’m in the real world now… and i dont like it very much..

Uni is finished so thats a good thing, passed my degree waiting on graduation the end of this month, what to wear what to wear. Moved into our new house exactly a month ago today so yeah thats another great thing, thats made me so happy!but then i got a job, i thought it was going to be the best thing in the world, even though i was a little bit frightend about it but once i got there it was a completely different kettle of fish.

everything is just so different to home, it makes me feel like an outsider that i dont know hwats going on; i dont know where things belong it bothers me and i dont like the phone system it doesnt like my accent! thats annoying when your trying to get a hold of someone.

i guess it wasnt what i was expecting, its not like being a student at all, your so accountable for everything thats happened but i suppose thats the same in anyjob, if you make a mistake you have to deal with it. yes its a challenege and its a good one at that but its just not making me happy. shouldnt you should at least at the beginning of starting a job want to go and be happy that you have a job make some friends and generally want to go back, not the fact that you have to go everyday to make ends meat.

maybe things will change in the next few months who knows! i really hope it does – i dont like this person its turning me into. being tierd all the time not having the engery to do all the things i used to like doing!

maybe it was too much all at once, new place to live, new house, new job, new people away from family! dont get me wrong i really like it here, but i just wish that my family were here with me its lonely with out them.

so its been a while, but so far… i’ve handed in 3 essays …and had all the results back wooo!! … which means  i’ve just got one essay to go….the final essay the very very last… and in 13 weeks i’m going to be finished finished oh my stars…i’m so not ready to go into the big bad world yet

soo…. its taken me  ages but i’ve finally got to 1, 033 words lol just another 1, 967 to go… oh its taking ages but i think i’m beginng to get somewhere.. well for the moment,  i get so far then i run out of information and it takes alot of time to sift through the vast amounts of infomration to find what is fact and what is utter rubbish..

anyway back to the grind i go….

So me and mum went to the park; we managed to walk around the pond 2 times.. its fairly large, did it in a record time haha of less than 20 mins.. good bit of exercise that was fun.. i really am procrastinating which is a damn shame since i knowish what i’m wanting to do anyway.. here are some pictures from the lovely park….

roukenglen park

Ok so i’m off to a good start today i’ve made a plan of what has to be included in my essay! i have all the information lol so i think its just a case of getting on with it and writing it… i’m hoping that it will sort of write its self… heres hoping… anyway i have 478 words at the moment lets hope that i can get to over 1,000 before this afternoons lecture….. this is my inclusion and integration oh the joys   it has to include inclusion and integration, citizenship, social roles and equality wooo hooo its going to be a good day i hope… the sun is shining the skies are blue… lol heres hoping.. wish me luck.! hahahha

Ok, so this is my first post apparently; what can i say… i’m acutally very stressed at the moment trying to write 2 essays at the same time that plan isnt going very well… i have 480 words of one and 588 of the other lol at least i have one completley finished 3,054 words… far to many words…

i dispise, hate, appore, dislike, ESSAY writing.